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QUOTE(luvbugin)I'm afraid that a friend or family member wouldn't come to me for help

I'm afraid of this also. I always let my friends know that I'm here for them if they even need to talk or just need a friend. It scares the shit out of me that a friend may kill himself or somethin and didn't know that I was here if he just needed to talk.

I am afraid of spiders and bees!
I fear myself because I got a very competitive nature. For example, my cousin pierced his nose friday. So I took it a step forward a pierced my lebrae (under your lip). Then I pierced my nose. He had a starter earring, I had 2 safety pins. Itook out the lebrae but I kept the nose. /smile.gif" style="vertical-align:middle" emoid=":)" border="0" alt="smile.gif" />
I fear to lose either my brothers or one of my two cousins which are also my two best friends.

on the real level, im afraid of failure..

on the elementary level, spiders dont exactly make my day..

Wooohooo...I aint alone on this spider thing!

One night I was on my bed and I saw a spider on the window sill and I didnt know what to do cause I was home all alone. Well, my window was open so I started calling for my neighbor and he came to the window like "what!?". Haha, I made him come up and kill it for me. I didnt wanna let it outta my sight cause then if he ran away and I couldn't find him I wouldn't be able to sleep. It was great!

This hole topic has been bugin me out for a couple dayz for sure...

I do alot of things many would consider dangerous, or nutty.. Its how I get high. I fall into spiritual awareness when I have flashes of common sense; A feeling this is God's Will and I'm here for a reason.

I carry no conscious fear.

Another big fear of mine is losing something. Mainly because it is such a disappointing thing, especially to my relationship with my father. He always says not to lose anything, and I feel guilty that I've lost my things against his word. I could disobey his wishes and not feel horrible, but if I lose something, I feel very low............

QUOTEMainly because it is such a disappointing thing, especially to my relationship with my father. He always says not to lose anything, and I feel guilty that I've lost my things against his word. I could disobey his wishes and not feel horrible, but if I lose something, I feel very low..

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Sorry tim, but your dad is a prick. Perhaps he means well. Perhaps his sub-conscious wants to always have a hold on his son... :AYHJA1:

WTF.......

Do what is best for your life.

Dads ain't always gonna be happy 'bout your path, decisions. <killjoy>

Jus build your Palace one Solid Brick at a time.

QUOTE(capnstick)QUOTEMainly because it is such a disappointing thing, especially to my relationship with my father. He always says not to lose anything, and I feel guilty that I've lost my things against his word. I could disobey his wishes and not feel horrible, but if I lose something, I feel very low..

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Sorry tim, but your dad is a prick. Perhaps he means well. Perhaps his sub-conscious wants to always have a hold on his son... :AYHJA1: .


Please do not say that again. I may be intimidated by my father more than anything in the world, but I love him and I know deep in his heart he loves me too.


To be honest I really do have tears welling in my eyes.






































My father gets disappointed because he strives his hardest to help me and make my quality of life be the best it can, he has done that all my life. Since I started school I was sometimes careless with things, and the reason why I feel so low is because I have hurt my father emotionally. It's almost like a stab in the back to him. I don't blame him. Sometimes I have travelled in remote areas for 2 weeks at a time, and everything is intact when I arrive back home. Yet in one day at home I can misplace something by not being careful, and lose it forever. That's what frustrates me also, I can be careful sometimes but not in others- even when I think I am being careful.

I am so upset I cannot even feel to flame you. I'm sorry but you have hurt me alot.

And by the way, if you read my title, my name is NOT timbo. "Pete" is just a screen name, a pseudonym I have for Yahoo.

I know where you're coming from Pete. My father was (and is still) very demanding, but I know it's because he loves me and wants me to be the best I can be. I've disappointed him many times in my life... that's natural, it's part of the dynamic. He's come down hard on me some of those times, but I've never stopped loving him or stopped thinking he loved me. It doesn't make him a prick (to quote another) just because he takes me to task. I have to do the same thing with my son and it doesn't mean I don't love him and he doesn't stop loving me either. It's all part of that tough love you have to have when you're a parent. Keep trying to do your best... take what your father says as loving guidance, but don't lose track of who you are either. At some point you have to go your own way and you have to take responsibility for your actions. Part of becoming a responsible, productive adult. But NEVER think your Dad doesn't love you. Keep those ties tight!
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