Story

#1

For the past year my life has been complete chaos, financially, mentally and even socially. My life was in such ruin because of me and my ill advised decisions I made in my life, not really thinking things through.

Last week I had to place my car in consignment until I make the payments up, so that left me without a car, which really isn†™ ¢‚¬„¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¢†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¡¢‚¬Å¡‚¬†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¾¢‚¬Å¡‚¢t that bad in this area because buses and trains go every where, so it†™ ¢‚¬„¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¢†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¡¢‚¬Å¡‚¬†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¾¢‚¬Å¡‚¢s not that bad. But any way last Thursday I had to be at work at 2 so I hoped on the bus and caught the metro and went to work, no big deal, but it was the walk home that changed my life and really let me see allot of the errors in my thinking.

I left from work about 10:34pm when I was suppose to leave at 10:00pm and started walking to the metro station to catch the train home. Now the closest metro station by my apartment is King St. Metro. I arrived at my metro stop just as the metro was closing for the night at 11:00pm. When I went out to catch a bus I noticed that there was only 2 buses outside, so I asked one of the bus drivers what time was my particular bus coming through he said, "the last bus scheduled left at 10:34," and I asked him again if there were any more buses coming and he again replied with no. So I had no choice but to walk the 3 miles to my apartment in the middle of the night. Now the King St. metro is right in front of the Washington DC Masonic Temple off of King St. So I started walking and thinking how in the fuck did I miss that damn bus, but those thoughts quickly left my immediate attention because I was more worried about my life and the negative turn it had taken in the past year, I was fired from two different jobs over bullshit, I wasn't making as much money as I used too, I feel like I don†™ ¢‚¬„¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¢†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¡¢‚¬Å¡‚¬†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¾¢‚¬Å¡‚¢t see my kids enough and I have one more on the way and more and more shit. Hell with this recent stint of unemployment I really sunk to my all time lowest point by almost committing suicide but I just couldn't do it, I couldn't, I couldn't imagine my kids growing up like me always wondering about people I will probably never meet, a family I will never know. I normally talk my problems out with jerk, but I got to the point where I felt like I was more or less bugging him by constantly talking to him about my shit, knowing jerk I probably was. Anyway I went for a job interview a day or two before with a go contract company for a whole lot of dead white men and I was also worried about that because I really need the job to get my life in order and accomplish the goals I have finally set for myself.

About 2 miles up king st. I asked God why me, why all this constant pain and sorrow and surprisingly enough he answered me right then and there, when I looked up at the street sign I was standing next to KING ST. I realized I was walking up KING ST., going home.... At that point I realized that everything God had put before me was my preparation for LIFE his life, my walk up KING ST was like me being unplugged and really seeing myself and the mistakes I have made in my life, but those mistakes I really do appreciate because those mistakes have helped make me into the man I am today and I wouldn't take a single one back.

I stopped at a McDonalds to get some food but I only had a few bucks and some change so I got a bottled water from the gas station next door and two apple pies from mccyd's. so I started back eating and walking and when I was one block away from my house I noticed this lady sleep on the bench @ 12 something in the morning so I walked past her and then walked back to her and gave her the rest of the change I had in my pocket basically all the money I had and placed it under the pillow she was sleeping on and when I placed the money under the pillow that†™ ¢‚¬„¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¢†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¡¢‚¬Å¡‚¬†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¾¢‚¬Å¡‚¢s when I started crying, hell I just broke the fuck down, but then I realized how angry God was at us for the ill advised decisions we've made as a whole body of people neglecting Gods one and true only rule "COMPASION"..... Then I also realized that the world isn†™ ¢‚¬„¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¢†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¡¢‚¬Å¡‚¬†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¾¢‚¬Å¡‚¢t ready for allot of blessings and true knowledge he is ready to bestow upon us. God is pissed and our days are short, very short..........

The next morning I went on another job interview and was offered the job, hell the manager took me out to lunch after reading my resume and I scheduled a meeting with the president of the company. But the reason why I am telling you this story is because I was selected for the first job I interviewed for, the one I needed to put my life together. And that walk home was what I needed to see my errors in my life and how I needed to change, not only for me but for my kids.

My thoughts may be out of order, but the message is still the same..... As jerk says, "its time for me to see whats really going on around me."

#2

What a story man. I'm sorry for the hell you've gone through...that really sucks. I'm glad though that you are starting to work it out. That's always good to come to that realization. We are a family here so anything you need just ask. We'll take care of you seeker. Welcome back home

#3

I loved reading this...

For one, I would never be tired of talking to you...But you see it best now, there are some things that you cannot solve by talk alone...Like it was said in the matrix, it is a difference between talking the path, and knowing the path...You are better than you imagine, and don't give yourself enough credit...The path of the true king is never easy....And it will always be long and hard and seemingly unfair...But the rewards man...The rewards are tremendous....

Bro, you don't need me no more...I've given you all that I have to give...Its time you tapped in, and started getting your information form the source...

Godspeed, Young King...

#4

Thanks for sharing that theseeker.

#5

Life is a beatiful struggle, just like Talib Kweli says..and that was a beautiful story..

But A, what part of the Matrix is that, idr it..

#6

It was in the first part, when Neo grabbed that cord and stopped that helicopter...

#7

QUOTEa whole body of people neglecting Gods one and true only rule "COMPASION"..... Then I also realized that the world isn†™ ¢‚¬„¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¢†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¡¢‚¬Å¡‚¬†™‚¢‚¢¢¢‚¬Å¡‚¬¦‚¾¢‚¬Å¡‚¢t ready for allot of blessings and true knowledge he is ready to bestow upon us. God is pissed and our days are short, very short..........
looking at all the anger and unilateral talk there is in worldwide: you are right we lack it. and right they are short. good that you pulled through.

#8

Compassion is an illusion designed to quench guilt. it does nothing for suffering.

let those who need, attain. this is wisdom. I can give a man a piece of bread, for he has not eaten in weeks.

and in giving that bread I threaten his life,.. for the hungry masses will easily kill him for that crust.

and in eating it, he might also die. or be a diabetic, or worse yet, allergic to wheat.

the ony way to truly end suffering is to TRANSFORM YOUR UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT SUFFERING IS.

Suffering is the price of opposition, which is the very friction that is caused by the bonding of atoms that yields the very reality we seek to embody. This is why Siddhartha said "Existence is suffering."

*Compassion* is telling someone what they need, based on what you think you need.

It is the weakest substitute for Love.

vertical,
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#9

haha. "empathy" then. /wink.gif" style="vertical-align:middle" emoid=";)" border="0" alt="wink.gif" />

#10

You help someone by showing them some of their options and make them think for themselves subliminally.